Friday, March 05, 2010

Ugh...

I finally have an appointment for Dr. Ren next Friday. I hope that I get some sort of fill. I basically have not had anything for two months. The last two fills were not so great, the nurse had to do an unfill both times. The second time she took out everything that she had just put in - so I was no better off than the moment I walked into the office that day. When I told this to Tammy at Dr. Ren's office she told me that was not what she should have done. She should have taken a little out, not all of it. This comment made me feel hopeful that Dr. Ren will give me something on Friday - I HOPE!

I mean I am really falling of the wagon here. I am not eating what I should, I am not following the rules, I am not weighing myself - basically I suck. And to top it off, I have been slacking on C25K. The week we moved I decided that I was going to take a break - way too much going on. I was okay with that; knowing that I would have to go back a week in the training, the time off really makes a difference in my stamina. However I can't seem to get past this week now!! I should be on like week 9 now, WTF! Basically, I think my piss poor attitude is holding me back.

The good news - I will be going home (Southern New Jersey) tomorrow for the weekend! I am so excited, my friends and I are getting together for manis, drinks and dinner tomorrow night - I can't wait. Hopefully, this will bring me one step closer to pulling me out of this funk.

My plan is to get back on track Monday. Eating the right foods, ignoring my emotional hunger and starting (and finishing) week 6 of C25K. I only have a little over a month before my 6K and the cruise with my friends - I have to get my ass in gear! Hopefully, this fill will bring me some restriction. I feel like I am getting discouraged because I am having to do this on my own - just like all the other "diets". I know this isn't true, I am still eating way less than before, but I am defiantly more hungry lately.

6 comments:

jennyr1222 said...

So sorry it's been so crappy Colleen but I can't imagine why she wouldn't give you a fill so at least by next Friday you should be back in the game. I slacked off on C25k with my foot injury and plan to restart week 4 tomorrow so you'll have a buddy. If you're headed home tomorrow are you still coming to brunch Sunday??

MandaPanda said...

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. Hopefully this fill will give you what you need. As for C25K...ugh. I'm starting ALL over...I didn't even make it as far as you before I lost the motivation. We can suck together! That sounded wrong...but you know what I mean. LOL. Have a great weekend!

Bonnie said...

Dr. Ren better give you a fill or we'll storm her office. We got your back. (or I guess we got your BAND would be more accurate)

THE DASH! said...

You'll get there hon. I honestly believe half the battle is realising where you are going wrong. Once you get that sorted you can tackle the problem. Good luck with it.. I know you can do it!!! Have a lovely weekend. x

Tami said...

I'm starting my C25K all over again too. I started then stopped and feel like I need to start again. Good luck getting back into the swing of things. Hope you get some satisfaction at the Dr this time!

Dinnerland said...

I hope things went well.. how are you??