So, I was sitting with Keith (not sure, I think that was his name) and he looked at my esophogram that I had done the week before and said "Wow, hun, you are wide open!". WTF, wide open?!?! At this point I am crying tears of joy - I really have been down on myself - feeling like a total failure. He was so sweet about my crying - he kept patting my hand and saying the Dr. Ren was going to fix everything and that I would start losing again! Once Dr. Ren came in I explained my previous experiences for my last two fills and she was appalled! I told her that I have been basically relying on self control for the past two months and that I realized that the band is just a tool, but that I didn't feel like I was being helped at all for the last two months. She then looked at me like I had three eyes! She said that self control is needed in order to eat slowly and chewing thoroughly, which is impossible to do if you are hungry. I got up on the table and she took out 4.5 cc's, which is crazy, because I should have had more in there according to my previous surgeon's office - I mean I had 3 cc's when the band was installed! Dr. Ren put in an extra cc's, so I should be at 5.5. To tell you the truth, I am not sure that this was enough, but we shall see. I am very hungry, but I have been on liquids so I guess that is to be expected!
I really love Dr. Ren - and wow, I am just going to say it - She is gorgeous!!! She is very easy to talk to and she does really listen. I guess this is why they everything happens for a reason, I was upset that I had to change doctors due to insurance issues - but in the end it was for the best!
Oh, and btw - I found the courage to weight myself this morning and I have lost 3.5 pounds which brings me to a total of 30.5!!! Whoohoo!! The last time that I actually weighed myself was probably about a month ago - I just have been so upset about this non-restriction thing. Plus, I really did lose my scale in a box during the move! But, anyhoo, I am so very glad to have a loss...
I hope everyone had a great weekend, happy Monday!