Monday, March 15, 2010

Felling Better...

I am feeling so much better now that I have meet Dr. Ren and her staff. I can't get over how much better this office is compared to my old one!

So, I was sitting with Keith (not sure, I think that was his name) and he looked at my esophogram that I had done the week before and said "Wow, hun, you are wide open!". WTF, wide open?!?! At this point I am crying tears of joy - I really have been down on myself - feeling like a total failure. He was so sweet about my crying - he kept patting my hand and saying the Dr. Ren was going to fix everything and that I would start losing again! Once Dr. Ren came in I explained my previous experiences for my last two fills and she was appalled! I told her that I have been basically relying on self control for the past two months and that I realized that the band is just a tool, but that I didn't feel like I was being helped at all for the last two months. She then looked at me like I had three eyes! She said that self control is needed in order to eat slowly and chewing thoroughly, which is impossible to do if you are hungry. I got up on the table and she took out 4.5 cc's, which is crazy, because I should have had more in there according to my previous surgeon's office - I mean I had 3 cc's when the band was installed! Dr. Ren put in an extra cc's, so I should be at 5.5. To tell you the truth, I am not sure that this was enough, but we shall see. I am very hungry, but I have been on liquids so I guess that is to be expected!

I really love Dr. Ren - and wow, I am just going to say it - She is gorgeous!!! She is very easy to talk to and she does really listen. I guess this is why they everything happens for a reason, I was upset that I had to change doctors due to insurance issues - but in the end it was for the best!

Oh, and btw - I found the courage to weight myself this morning and I have lost 3.5 pounds which brings me to a total of 30.5!!! Whoohoo!!  The last time that I actually weighed myself was probably about a month ago - I just have been so upset about this non-restriction thing.  Plus, I really did lose my scale in a box during the move!  But, anyhoo, I am so very glad to have a loss...

I hope everyone had a great weekend, happy Monday!



11 comments:

Jennifer said...

Dr. Ren sounds wonderful! I hope this fill works for you. I've been there done that. Hard to have control when you are starving!
Congrats on the 30.5 lbs!!!

Bonnie said...

It must be so frustrating to have this tool, but not have it working at it's full potential. Great work losing the weight on self control. Just think what's going to happen now that you have a good fill!

Nicole said...

Hope this fill helps you :) And your tool starts working for you!

jennyr1222 said...

Oh Colleen! So excited you were finally able to get in and like her so much. I think they are great, often too busy, but so on the ball! Hope that once you start eating solids you notice a difference. However, the great thing about them is that if you don't notice a difference you can schedule another fill within a couple of weeks. Gaspar is the NP there and is also great in case you can't get in with Dr. Ren. Hope everything is good with the new apartment! xoxo

carla said...

So glad you got in and saw Dr Ren....Now you will have a "working" tool to help you and the support that your previous office did nto give you. Congrats on the weight loss...downward you go!!!

Gen said...

That is awesome, Colleen! Dr. Ren seems so great (and I love the book she and her husband wrote, Fighting Weight). Congrats on the 30!!!!!

Southern Belle said...

Sweetie I am so glad that you are finally in the right place. It sounds like you are finally going to get some help making this band work for you! You have done so well on your own but hopefully now it won't be so hard...plus if it's not enough you should be able to see them again in a couple weeks. Congrats on your loss!

Yana said...

I'm glad you are sounding so positive! I've been meaning to send you an email and see how you were doing...this practice is much more aggressive with fills than some others, for which I am SOOOOO thankful!

The Former Fat Girl said...

My dear Colls...sorry Ive been a total stranger but school is light a fire under my ass !! I am so happy that you made it over to Dr. Ren's !! They really are a great team there !! I have my next fill on Mar 23. God knows what she'll say when she see's 2 freaking lbs in a month ARRGGHHH !!

Dinnerland said...

Awesome-- now you can see why I heart Dr. Ren too-- she can be rushed, but she is definitely a knowledge goldmine. Good luck with this fill: and remember, if this doesn't work-- the next one or the next one will. YOu're on the right road!

Tina said...

woohooo you are off to the races again. It sounds if more fills are needed it sounds like your new doctor will be able to get the job done. I can't wait to see how it all goes.