My best friend's mother has been in ICU for two weeks now and I went home this past weekend to visit. I saw her three times and each time she was improving. I am extremely close with the family and it breaks my heart to see this happen to such an amazing group of people. In fact, I am actually closer to her family than my own! Today they took her tube out and she is breathing on her own, this is great news. However; she still has quite a ways to go, with two surgeries in the near future.
Work is absolutely insane, INSANE! I can't seem to catch up on anything and everyone wants their shit like yesterday! I am only one person, right?!
I just feel like a failure right now. My eating has gone to shit, I think I injured myself this weekend lifting things - I am not supposed to lift anything for like four weeks. Which means my exercise is pretty much non-existent right now. Worst of all - I did not weigh myself on Monday - the SHAME! I chose to do this - good or bad. I chose to commit to tracking everything, no matter what. I am just so terrified to see the 200's again - which is inevitable at this point.
What have I done to myself....