Let's get right into it - I have not posted for a little while because I was feeling pretty down. There are a lot of thoughts that are running through my head right now.
The week after I hit 50 lbs down I only lost half a pound. For the next two weeks I lost nothing! When this happens all these terrible thoughts jump into my mind. Is this just another attempt at losing weight that I am going to fail at? Is this the end of the line?
Luckily this week's number was great, 207.5, down 2 lbs, yay! I am very surprised I had such a great loss. I have not worked out because I am lazy and my trainer is away and I have been kinda eating like crap a little. Nothing crazy, but still not the greatest choices. As I am eating said crap, the whole time I am thinking to myself "What are you doing?! You are down 50 lbs - don't eat that or you ARE going to FAIL!"
I am now only 7.5 lbs away from the elusive Onederland. I really can't remember the last time I was in the 100's, it has to be at least six years. I am terrified right now, but why? This is a good thing, I should be excited. Maybe the possibility of NOT reaching this next milestone is what's messing with my mind. I have been in this position before - stared at this same goal so many times while stepping onto the Weight Watchers scale. Hoping and praying this is the week that brings me that much closer - but I never did get there...
Meh, sorry for the sad little post. Just had to get some of this off my chest. I hope you all had a wonderful 4th (those who celebrate)!